What About Me?

I know this cannot be true...

He keeps trying to do the right thing, but when the success outweighs the negativity in his life, he rejects the good for what it is. Instead of reflecting on the good, all of what has brought him shame comes to mind. This person is trapped in his own misery when everything is going well. He suffers unnecessarily; he complains when there is nothing to complain about. Life is not suppose to be this good, and if it is, he asks himself why he did not have the opportunities to enjoy it in this manner when he was a young soul. Yes, a young soul, one that was still willing to mature without fear of positive consequences. Wait. Yes, positive consequences. For him, it is a difficult task to mature past his years once again. Three years of college made him question who he was, but now it is time for him to make a triumphant return to self, but the road will not be easy. Negative actions that have become positive habits are hard to break, but he can do it. He is motivated, he is determined, and he is ready. This time he will not fail. If this is who he was such a long time ago, even then he was lying to himself. The amount of effort he had to put forth in the past was extraordinary, but now that he is fully aware of the truth, he will have to work that much harder to maintain his sanity. He is no longer working for the product; instead, he recognizes the process that is life. Life is what will carry him to where he needs to be; he need not worry about the things that he cannot change. All that he can know or trust is himself and the Lord, so that is what he will do until the answer is revealed -- it is only a matter of time.